Keep running, never look back

Confused, but I'm glad that I'm moving on with life without, though I'm taking quite some time. Only when I drink, it'll make me sober, making me missing you so so much. Guess you'd already move on with your life without me long ago. I regretted being so possessive. You've already left me, never turning back for me anymore.

I must tell myself that you won't be there to give me bear hugs, telling me sorry when we're both at fault, whispering to my ears, telling me that everything's gonna be alright. Whispering to me, "I love you". No more crazy times with you, no more sad faces, happy faces, angry faces, crazy faces anymore. Those days where we'll behave like kids when we're in our own world, though nobody understand us. Those days where you'll look into my eyes and pat my head. Days when you'll surprise me with a chip&dale soft toy, even when I'm angry with you. Remember you'll always clean my mouth after meals we had together? Whenever you're sick, I'll be worried, guess not anymore. No more cooking for you, no more meals together, no more late nights. No more watching shows together.

We'd made a promise, to be there for each other, be it happy or sad, but not anymore. Lies you made, I choose to forgive, because you were the best at that moment, to me. Going thru everything with you, was what I'd enjoyed the most. You've once lit up my life, showing me what's true love, what's the feeling like of being loved. You were so good to me, I miss last year's today. Now you're gone.

Everything's so near, yet so far. No more 25th. If you ever happen to read thru this, this what's in my heart after the break up. All the best for you, takecare.

Easier said then done

I've nothing much to say. I'll keep to my words, I'll let you be alone. I'll just study hard & await for what has been planned for me by God. I know I can't change a stubborn heart, I know he won't be back any sooner, but I've been thinking whether he'll be back by this month, 25th. That'll be our 1year 5months. I miss you so much, yet I can't say a single thing. I just don't understand why is he so stubborn. I see the pain in you too, yet you're pushing me away. It hurts, but I'll wait, because you're my everything & I really miss you.

I love the way you lie

Everything happened for a reason. Reasons you gave won't the best reasons for a break up, it wasn't my doings, my actions. It's just that you don't love me anymore, yes that's the best reason you gave. Though I can't accept the break up, I will. I'll learn to be strong, stronger then what you think I am, because you left me when I needed you the most. You thought me how to be stronger.

So many lies in this relationship, yet I choose to forget about the lies & be with you, loving you unconditionally still, yet you failed me. Yes I may begged you to come back when we first broke up, but now, I won't. Through this relationship, I've seen so many things, so many things which I didn't see in my past relationships. I'll always remember, you never gave me any chances to mend my mistakes, mistakes that were so minor. Mistakes which lead you to turn love to nothing. I won't blame everything to myself, because you did the same thing too, just that I didn't mentioned it. Thanks for giving me sucha surprise, which I didn't expect now.

If you ever hold on to other woman's hand, don't ever come back telling me how regretful you're. I won't hold on to your hand anymore, because it's gonna be different, because it won't be the hand I used to hold. All I can say now is, I gave you the best, yet you ended it yourself. You choose it this way. I won't regret anymore, because I know I gave you the best you could ever had.

This break up won't kill me, it'll just make me stronger, thanks.

Nothing left

Currently at queensway lan shop with sista and shifu (: Schools tmr, I don't feel like going.

Everything happened for a reason, goodbye, I love you still though it ended.