13th Feb 2010

12 more days with dearest before he marches into the camp area for his national service. Botak for sure, ugly but still the little boy I love the most. Big in size, silly in actions, makes my day. My happy pills definitely, he's the one who enlightens my day but at the same time he can make me go B - O - O - M - Z. He's definitely a good guy, just me who's mostly the one throwing my temper around. He dote on me, patience he has. Huge spender who insist on getting the things he wants. He'll try ways to get it no matter what. He'll never let go of this relationship, it's always me the one who's letting it go & wanting it back. Yes, I'm a heartbreaker to him, maybe, still my love will always be there just for him & I don't know why. Love you dearie.

F - A - T - E ? L- O - V - E ? H - A - T - E ?

When will troubles stop entering into my brain? If you don't change, you'll lose every single one. To you it might be nothing. Try understanding how others feel too. You've to know, they/ we have feelings too. Not only you'll be hurt, but us, the one who cares for you, but at the end of the day we get nothing. Not only you have problems, we too have. Hopefully one day, just that one day, you'll change to be better person. I'll be awaiting for that day, my friend.

You keep me wondering whether have you ever treat me as your bestest friend, or just some partner to keep you accompanied when you're bored? Don't claim that I'm your bestest friend if that's the case. I can be there for you, but bestest friend won't command besties around. Most of the time I've been going your ways, sometime just understand that somethings you can't force it. Be nice all the time, not just for sometime, i'll appreciate that. Tell me your secrets like how besties should. Yes you're a good friend, but when you've a mood swing, it's totally different. The best is all I want for you now. That's all, love you still bestie. (:


Random me about me feeling vexed now, what about you?

You pulled the trigger & fired it straight into my heart

Out of a rush decision, we're over. Nothing left to say anymore. Schools fine, went to schools with swollen eyes. I'm fine I guess. Was suppose to go cycling tonight with someone but at the end, canceled i guess.

Did I made the right decision? ):

My heart sinks when the music stops

Schools a so so. Well you can't judge who's a two headed snake & who's for real now, because it's just the starting. Schools @ CHEC, it's way much different from CVSS. Friends you've known for years, gone. New friends yet afraid they might hurt you at the end. & plus schools will just text you're parents when you skip lessons, they don't accept even MC, it's still a 0 for that day. Damn. Well, another msg from schools, I'll be withdrawn from schools by mom. ):

Tomorrow will'b one of the not so hetic day for the week. 3 lessons, 2 hours break, 3.15pm schools end! Sakae sushi will girlfs maybe. Bby's fetching to yishun aftermath, for his grandma's birthday. She flew all the way from Australia. Cool though. Tomorrow might not be a hetic day, if the afternoon's activities were canceled. I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E. Lucky, the weekends are drawing near, because I'm afraid I might collapse anytime soon.

Tomorrow, Sakae with the girls & Bby's family celebration.
Friday, Dad's Birthday.
Saturday, Cheechee's place to help her out.
Sunday, rest?

2 more weeks or so before Bby's going in to NS.
That's when I'll start to really study hard.
That's when I can stop going down Bedok during weekdays at times.
That's when I can concentrate.
That's when I can only meet him during weekends.
That's when I'll miss him badly.
That's when I'll receive phone calls from him in the night!

Bye.