FOOLED

LET THE MUSIC SPEAK MY MIND, I'M OUTTA HERE.
GOODBYE.

Suffocating

I feel safer on the other side, maybe a goodbye to here.

So one in a million

UPDATED

I love it

The best I ever had, I love you.

i am confused

Is it blogger or tumblr?

Pointless

The happiness we once had wasn't true, because I bought it from you from the start.

FRIENDS

I dislike a friend like you, you're a huge problem in my life. The problem you gave me had already took up most of my brain cells, thinking of ideas to solve the problem. You're nothing but rude, I dislike it. If you don't treasure me now as a friend, you might never find anyone as good as me being your true friend. Eventually one day I'll just bid goodbye to you if you ever hit my limits, friend.

My greatest partners

Once my greatest partners, forever will be. I Love You Guys.

amazingly in love

Be my other hand, will you?

She'll be breaking hearts

When the table flips between the both of us, the glasses will break, so is our relationship. Now it's over. Nothing's gonna stick the glasses back as one, so is our relationship. Goodbye.

Never before will I fall for someone, so deeply

Things left untold. It's seems so different, everything's change, even our unconditional love for both you & me, had changed. Things will never be the same. There's no more me and you, it's just me against the odds.

Silly sweet memories keeps me wanting you back more often

Just so you know, I love you still. Though I might be harsh about not needing you in my life anymore, but you should know best, that I need you still. It may seems that I'm enjoying life right now, without you, but the fact that I'm actually keeping myself occupied, just to get you outta my mind. I hope you'll understand what I'm doing, all that I'm doing, just wanting you back into my life again. Loving someone ain't hard, just the waiting part that's hard. I love you JTCW.

Hard work will surely pay off, so is my waiting.

Dance till we die

Nowdays, I'd spent my weekdays & weekend fruitfully, though it's without him. Had been clubbing & drinking. Life's just so great, just can't wait for O levels to be over, so I can actually go overseas to relax.

Well, I spent my Saturday @ ph, and I saw him outside ph, what a day. Didn't expect it too. Well, we're just total strangers now, how great. Well, I've give up. Let it be, there's no way we're gonna be back together again, just hope I don't see him on the streets in future anymore, he made it ugly, so be it. I'll not ask for more, I'll just live life like how it was when I didn't had him. I'll study now & work after that, then party. No guys, I won't die.

ARMY GUYS ARE JUST MF, I DON'T NEED ANY GUYS. Once bitten, twice shy. One experience is more then enough to kill me, so no more.
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Planning of heading to Rebel this saturday, should I? I wanna drink. ):<

Keep running, never look back

Confused, but I'm glad that I'm moving on with life without, though I'm taking quite some time. Only when I drink, it'll make me sober, making me missing you so so much. Guess you'd already move on with your life without me long ago. I regretted being so possessive. You've already left me, never turning back for me anymore.

I must tell myself that you won't be there to give me bear hugs, telling me sorry when we're both at fault, whispering to my ears, telling me that everything's gonna be alright. Whispering to me, "I love you". No more crazy times with you, no more sad faces, happy faces, angry faces, crazy faces anymore. Those days where we'll behave like kids when we're in our own world, though nobody understand us. Those days where you'll look into my eyes and pat my head. Days when you'll surprise me with a chip&dale soft toy, even when I'm angry with you. Remember you'll always clean my mouth after meals we had together? Whenever you're sick, I'll be worried, guess not anymore. No more cooking for you, no more meals together, no more late nights. No more watching shows together.

We'd made a promise, to be there for each other, be it happy or sad, but not anymore. Lies you made, I choose to forgive, because you were the best at that moment, to me. Going thru everything with you, was what I'd enjoyed the most. You've once lit up my life, showing me what's true love, what's the feeling like of being loved. You were so good to me, I miss last year's today. Now you're gone.

Everything's so near, yet so far. No more 25th. If you ever happen to read thru this, this what's in my heart after the break up. All the best for you, takecare.

Easier said then done

I've nothing much to say. I'll keep to my words, I'll let you be alone. I'll just study hard & await for what has been planned for me by God. I know I can't change a stubborn heart, I know he won't be back any sooner, but I've been thinking whether he'll be back by this month, 25th. That'll be our 1year 5months. I miss you so much, yet I can't say a single thing. I just don't understand why is he so stubborn. I see the pain in you too, yet you're pushing me away. It hurts, but I'll wait, because you're my everything & I really miss you.

I love the way you lie

Everything happened for a reason. Reasons you gave won't the best reasons for a break up, it wasn't my doings, my actions. It's just that you don't love me anymore, yes that's the best reason you gave. Though I can't accept the break up, I will. I'll learn to be strong, stronger then what you think I am, because you left me when I needed you the most. You thought me how to be stronger.

So many lies in this relationship, yet I choose to forget about the lies & be with you, loving you unconditionally still, yet you failed me. Yes I may begged you to come back when we first broke up, but now, I won't. Through this relationship, I've seen so many things, so many things which I didn't see in my past relationships. I'll always remember, you never gave me any chances to mend my mistakes, mistakes that were so minor. Mistakes which lead you to turn love to nothing. I won't blame everything to myself, because you did the same thing too, just that I didn't mentioned it. Thanks for giving me sucha surprise, which I didn't expect now.

If you ever hold on to other woman's hand, don't ever come back telling me how regretful you're. I won't hold on to your hand anymore, because it's gonna be different, because it won't be the hand I used to hold. All I can say now is, I gave you the best, yet you ended it yourself. You choose it this way. I won't regret anymore, because I know I gave you the best you could ever had.

This break up won't kill me, it'll just make me stronger, thanks.

Nothing left

Currently at queensway lan shop with sista and shifu (: Schools tmr, I don't feel like going.

Everything happened for a reason, goodbye, I love you still though it ended.

Don't be sad if your love one left, be gald you once had her

My mind's blank right now. I don't really know what's going thru my mind. All I know that's now I'm waiting for the first bus or train back home, but I doubt I'll be taking them, because I think I'll just get a cab home? Bet my whole body will feel sourish when the clock hits six. It's already turning sourish now. Damn it.

Let's talk about my Saturday though it's a Sunday already. I woke up around 1 plus in the noon, lazed around till evening, bathed, over to steph's place, cabbed to typ with her then cabbed down commonwealth for Ana Darling's birthday, then cabbed back to sk, parted from bestie & headed to Bestf's house. Once I got into her house, I got my ass stucked on the floor using this LOUSY MACBOOK of hers! HAHAHHA! Can't webcam, can't game, only fb, msn & blog.

& I'm disappointed, really disappointed with someone.. Why won't this someone ever change for the better? I'll just leave if there's a need, be it whether I'll get hurt or not.

Stay close, Don't go

The above video is my babygurl which I'd bought a few days ago. I bought her at Serangoon ave 4, the pet walk. She's so adorable and quiet, but she's super mischievous. Babygurl love to dig deep down the hay. Hahaha.

Anyway this is a re-post because I accidentally deleted the previous post. Baby won't be booking out tonight, instead it's tomorrow morning, & he promised to accompany me to Ana's birthday celebration. So cool of him.

I have to start studying during weekends too. Prelims in 3 weeks, O levels in 61days I guess. Damn, the feeling sucks.

But I'm just going back to FB for Baking Life first. It's sucha addictive game!

I love both Baby Teo & Babygurl! ♥

My pain will go whenever you hug me

Many things happened, at the end of the day, we'll just be back together as one. I love you, Jet'aime. Had fun this few days, be it with or without baby.

K singing with my darlings on thursday till 2am,

Friday I've forgotten what I'd done, most probably was nothing much. Saturday, was a stay home till late, baby came to find me & I managed to talk things out with him, though I cried like some crazy bitch. He left less after I tried to talk to him, less then 10 min he said he needa go, still at the end of the day, he came back to me, after like 30 min. Everything went fine for us.

Sunday was a day where both me & baby woke up in the afternoon, cabbed to amk for some japanese food for lunch. I swear I had the worse raw salmon. It really spoiled my appetite. Then we cabbed down to paya lebar for lan. After that was bedok 85 for dinner. Called Becca & Isaac up for a last min dinner with me & baby at 85. They cabbed down & it was the first time we finished our food, we had never finish our food at chomp chomp before. Maybe I know why, because there's baby. It's always the usual 3s instead of 4s. Then we cabbed over to my place for a show baby bought from bedok inter, "the clash of the tatians". Though we'd all watched it in the cinemas before. Then Becca and Isaac left for home.

Monday, woke up in the noon then had our lunch. Nuggets, maggi and duck meat. Yummy. Baby left around 5 plus, because he had to book in. CheeChee came over to find me & we headed to hougang plaza for K session. Sang till 1 plus, and cabbed home. JJ sent me to the door step. Haha, thanks Bestf.

Tuesday, normal day, headed out for dinner with Barney, JJ. LiangRong came after, followed by CheeChee then Jack Jeffery. 11pm, homed.

I'm worried for baby, he havent texts me since monday night. & his birthday's coming. His 19th. I don't know if I even have the money to get him a basic present. Damn it. The feeling sucks. Last year, I'd saved a few hundreds for his birthday, but this year, I saved nothing. Hopefully I can get some cash from my parents. & hope things remains like this for as long as we're together. Anyway, happy 19th in advance baby, I love you like always. (:

I'll handle everything on me own, i need no one.

We just need some time off from each other. I don't want to stress over studies and relationship problems. Lies over & over again. Once, twice & thrice, I'll forgive you. But the fourth, fifth & subsequence time, I can't even force myself to forgive you. No matter how hard I tried, I really give up this time round.

I'll keep everything to myself, because only me understand myself most. Friends always says, "I understand how you feel." Deep down, they don't really do, so yea, no point talking to them about what I'm really going thru.

Forever will be

Am blogging now cause baby's mapling. Gonna accompany him to the hospital later to visit a doc for his rash and stomach. He's having a 1 week block leave, but I'm having schools! Super tired now because i'v not caught a single wink the whole night except the bus ride back to his place. Nothing much about my weekends. Just that I'd caught twilight eclipse on Friday with loves @ bishan, supper aftermath @chompchomp. Wonderful night spent with baby, becca and Isaac son! Was suppose to head home, as I'd already promised mom, but in the end I spent my weekends @ baby's. Mapled all the way, taking turns. Homed this morning, for a change of clothes and back after a bowl of maggie for breakfast.
Can't wait for twilight's next movie! Excited! Kay I'm gonna have my lunch soon, cya mofo!

x2 = a2+b2-2(a)(b)cosX

School's a bitch. Body feeling so weak nowdays. & twilight eclipse is out! I'm gonna catch it most probably this Friday with B, Becca & Isaac after schools? B's pop this Friday, but sad to tell him that there's schools. Shall meet him after he reaches home to change & then we shall go catch the movie.

Studies I'm not coping well with, same goes my health. I wanna slim down seriously. I've gained 3kg ever since I've gone back schooling, fuck this shit. Nowdays, I'll mug hard & try not to eat anything dinner. I'll have breakfast & a light lunch. That's my plan, hopefully I can stick to it.

Tommorrow's plan, Schools> Light lunch> Home > Study
Friday, Schools > Light lunch (maybe not) > Stay back for chem > Meet up with B > Movies > Home (Hopefully)

Weekends, Studies!

100 plus more days to O levels, may god bless me to get at least a pass to poly, next year...

After so long..

It's been so long since i'd udate my this diary. Well nowdays I'm lagging of sleep. Overnight's causing this. Guess I'm really turning in soon. My eyes are shutting & still I'm on FB's game. Schools later, need my sleep.

Friday out till morning. Slept less then 7 hours, woke up got ready, went home to change, then down to cy's birthday bbq at zh's farm. Somehow I got semi-drunk. Hmmm, maybe not, just that my head feels so heavy! Stayed there till first bus. Bused home, the ride was fast. Slept for 3 hours & I'm up again to get ready for lunch with the family. Baby got came over and he ate nuggets at the living room instead of getting me up. He himself was also tired. HAHAHAHA! Had lunch @ suntec. Went over to B's and homed @730 with my dinner. Super full man. Then I did my project, feel quite accomplished, but I'm not ready for schools. Tired, guess that's all, nights.

Your image spinned in my mind for hours and hours..

I don't really know what to say. I flunk my major tests badly this time round. Don't really have the mood to step out of my house this holidays. I've got no job, no money. & I've to mug hard enough for the up coming major tests. You'll see people enjoying their holidays, but not for me. I seriously want & need a job, for some up coming events too, like birthday celebration, etc. Dude's booking out tomorrow, but I don't really intend to meet him this week at all. I'll be bored over at his place, might be heading to town instead with sista wk. It's been long since I've last saw him. Then maybe home for revision. No more gaming, spending more time on studies. Can't really catch up for science, all my fault. Chinese, blame me for not studying better, now that I can't read or write, blame myself. history, not really a problem. Social studies, I'll just have to read. Maths, shall do more practice paper, hopefully. English, nothing much to improve on, just the vocab wise.

I'm sick after ytd's drinking. Damn it. Bad pain in my throat, causing me to have a bad cough. Flu's telling me that it's coming soon. Damn, I feel so S-I-C-K-I-S-H. Somehow, I really feel like dying.

Sorry baby, if I'm somehow or somewhat gonna neglect you sooner or later. But I'm really gonna stud for my papers, ain't gonna waste my time anymore. I can still meet up with you dude, but not the staying over part. Not really into it now. Hope he'll understand.

Tomorrow's programme, Home> Meet up with B if he wants to go> Town to meet sista wk> Home

Airplanes in the night sky, like shooting stars..

Haven't been updating. Had been addicted to maple recently. Results from school suck, failed 3 papers for now. Getting back more tomorrow. Disaster, the only word I can describe for my major test 2. Major test 3 coming soon, right after our 2weeks of holidays. Ain't progressing well in school. Half a year had passed, really fast indeed. O levels coming soon

Baby won't contact me this 4 days, due to outfield. Boring much. No more his msges for this 4 days. It's okay, I'm used to not texting anymore. So yea, might not even reply texts from anyone if I'm lazy.

It's been 1 year 1 month & days with him. Can't actually believe I've my first serious relationship for so long. Thinking of how we started off, quarrels, cute moments, this shall be kept in my memory. We fight, we break up & we get back side by side for each other to rely on again. Times & times again. He's a faithful dude, & for that I love him. ♥

Game. Study. Game.

Was awake since yesterday till now, at issac's place with becca. Having sq buying breakfast for us. That's all. SS test later at 330. Hopefully I survive this torture & home for my sleep, that's for sure! Seeing baby tomorrow, mapling nowdays. Fun is all I can say. Bye.

Be an encouraging friend instead, I'll appreiciate it seriously

Currently uploading photos, but it seems to fail after so many attempts. Angry yes I am & the effing hot weather is making it worse. I'm missing someone, someone who took this picture above, with me. I miss him alot, but seems that we've been giving each other attitude nowadays. We get pissed off easily, esp me. Sometimes when I'm busy, he just won't get it that I'm busy. He gotta understand that I've to do my stuff first before replying his text, but he claims that I have to return his text as soon as he text me. Demanding at times, but still the guy I love.

Daily routines for me is schools from mondays to fridays at schools & weekend's at baby's crib. When I get home from schools, I'll just wait for 10pm & watch this taiwan drama! OMG, IT'S COOL OKAY! Mapling when I can't get to sleep at baby's crib. Private server some more! HAHAHA! Tuition every Thursdays & Saturdays, good girl yes I am, but not clever yet! Gonna aim to be a clever woman now. So yea, bye.

8th of may

Happy mama day.

Schools tomorrow, baby's booking in later. That's all, tata!

Happy 1 year BB Teo

Home-> Ikea -> Tamp -> Paya Lebar -> Home

Out with baby for the past two days. Saturday we had an early celebration for one 1 year. Headed down to ikea for lunch. Nice much, then to tamp. Met ahyang there, crapped alot, he's still as cock as ever. Then yang left for bugis while me & B to paya lebar for lan. Home-ed @10. Really enjoyed my day, though quarrels still occurs. That's all, schools tomorrow, headache nowdays, suck ttm.

M is for memories

Life just coloured with some ups & downs. Beautiful as it could be. Ugly like you've never imagined it would be that ugly. I can't make up my mind on certain things. Loving me was your forte, what about now? Even if it's gonna be over soon or it's already over, still I'm glad we had those sweet old days, which I say it's memories. Though this quarrel may mean nothing to you, but it left a great impact on me, seeing you change so much really hurts me alot... Things felt so different. I'm a freak, but thanks for loving me, cause you're doing it perfectly. I'm willing to let go if there's a need to, what about you?Will you still let go of me, when you said you won't no matter what, in the past.

Schools fun, just that there's many test, one after another, non stop tests! I bet i'll pass even half of the overall. Really gotta buck up, o levels nearing. My heart somehow beats faster whenever I think about o levels. Homework undone, gotta get back home soon to finish it up, currently at his place. Schools tomorrow. Kinda tired to get up for the early Bio lessons at 9.15am. But still gonna try my best! Mugging hard, yes I will. No more fun time JCMC!

Don't be remorseful, it won't help anymore

Things didn't went my way again & again. Now that you've not text me the whole day, it's okay. I've decided not to give in now by giving you a text, asking about you whereabouts. If things gonna be this way, then let it be. Army life's just an excuse. You & me know what's wrong. Don't always blame me for not understanding that you can't do lots of things inside army, think about it, does that mean whatever you want, I have to give in? Bullshit.

Back in schools tomorrow, bye.

You left me speechless

Am sick. Had a slight fever, a bad flu, some minor cough. Mc for straight 2 days by the doc. Really have to catch up in schools after this 2 days. Don't really feel well, the feeling sucks, at the same time, I'm loving it.

Had a tiff with him, he's always saying that I don't understand him. Just because he's in army, doesn't mean he's the king in this relationship. At times he really suck, but at times I love him ttm. Someone please tell me what to do? Things were different since a few days back. Somehow, someday, it's gonna end.. By then it's too late for amendments.

I hate it, somehow I feel it's ending soon.

So many things happened, somehow I don't feel we're the same as before. One day it'll just end. Tired, yes I am. Wish to put a full stop to everything, but somehow I can't. What should I do? That's all, bye.

I hearts my noob baby ♥

Home > Raffles place > Novena > Compass point > Home > Pasir Ris > Bedok

Yesterday was a hectic day for me. Never have I feel so tired, since, months ago? I can say it's a day out with Sissy Joe. Was wakened up by her when she walked into my room. It was 9 in the morning. We were discussing whether to forgo our work, it's just due to laziness. Ite, still we headed to work, as usual, we were late. It was some kinda survey job, waste of time, but easy money! 1 contact taken, $1. Basic pay, 1 hour 7bucks, just do for 4 hours. Got only 10 contacts, should have just get as many as possible rather then lazing around. & yes that's my part time holiday job. Proud of myself, at least I worked!

Had our late lunch and early dinner @ Kfc. Then walked around for Sissy's Bikini & hamster's food. Trained back to cp, got the hamster food & hsh. Rested till 8 & bused down to PR to fetch my smelly noob baby. Had a bad quarrel, which made me miss my meet up with Sista WK, KevinCKT son, Jevis emokid, Dawei shifu & melissa. Damn, it's majong!!!!

Sat downstairs baby's place alone for like 3-4hours? Teared non-stop, thanks alot smelly baby. Still at the end of the day, the war will eventually stop. I really love baby, though he's a noob. Nothing's gonna tear us apart. I'll stick to him, blame him for stealing my heart away. He'll always be a part of me no matter what. (:

Am going back home to bathe & change later on & heading out with baby then to baby's crib again.

Hotest topic, if you know

Parsir ris > Baby's place > Plaza sing > Jcube > Tpy > Baby's place

Woke up early just to fetch baby yesterday. Well, I hate it at times because, I HAVE A BAD EYE SIGHT, to me all of the army guys looks alike! Always having a hard time looking out for baby. Anyway, I'm feeling very relief, I don't know why. Baby's booking in soon, maybe he'll be booking out this coming Tuesday, Thursday all the way till Sunday! Happy definitely, my holidays, he's gonna book out for so many days! But I'll still miss him. Nothing much about life.

Monday - Maths lessons from 6pm till 7.30pm.

School's just so fine, but I failed most of my sub for major test 1. Needa buck up!

I MISS BABY, BYE.

Hate it when it's his book in, miss him badly. Schools tomorrow again. Result sucks, passed english that's all. Buck up JCMC, all the best!

Check yes juliet

Schools -> Lucky plaza for late lunch -> Bukit batok for pool sessions -> Woodlands -> Home

3 more days before I can see baby again. I miss him, yes I do. Major test over once tomorrow's last lesson's over. It calls for a celebration, at the same time, not. Guess I might only pass maths?

Outing with school friends now a days, many photos taken, but yet I'm just too lazy to upload it here. Pictures will be at FB once becca sucker's done with it!

& JCMC, you must really make an effort to go home straight right after schools. Save money too! & jogging back into my lifestyle after major exams. F-A-T-T-Y M-E, yes I am. Mom & sis said so too, damn I must must M-U-S-T slim down!!!!!!!!!!

Hectic day tomorrow, lessons till 4,30pm. By then I'll be dead beat. God just save me from every thursday!

to be the best at all times

Friday till Sunday - Baby's place
Up coming week - Major test

Schools fine, just one fucked up bitch doing things which she's afraid to admit. Chicken out I guess? What a joke. Nothing much, bye.

13th Feb 2010

12 more days with dearest before he marches into the camp area for his national service. Botak for sure, ugly but still the little boy I love the most. Big in size, silly in actions, makes my day. My happy pills definitely, he's the one who enlightens my day but at the same time he can make me go B - O - O - M - Z. He's definitely a good guy, just me who's mostly the one throwing my temper around. He dote on me, patience he has. Huge spender who insist on getting the things he wants. He'll try ways to get it no matter what. He'll never let go of this relationship, it's always me the one who's letting it go & wanting it back. Yes, I'm a heartbreaker to him, maybe, still my love will always be there just for him & I don't know why. Love you dearie.

F - A - T - E ? L- O - V - E ? H - A - T - E ?

When will troubles stop entering into my brain? If you don't change, you'll lose every single one. To you it might be nothing. Try understanding how others feel too. You've to know, they/ we have feelings too. Not only you'll be hurt, but us, the one who cares for you, but at the end of the day we get nothing. Not only you have problems, we too have. Hopefully one day, just that one day, you'll change to be better person. I'll be awaiting for that day, my friend.

You keep me wondering whether have you ever treat me as your bestest friend, or just some partner to keep you accompanied when you're bored? Don't claim that I'm your bestest friend if that's the case. I can be there for you, but bestest friend won't command besties around. Most of the time I've been going your ways, sometime just understand that somethings you can't force it. Be nice all the time, not just for sometime, i'll appreciate that. Tell me your secrets like how besties should. Yes you're a good friend, but when you've a mood swing, it's totally different. The best is all I want for you now. That's all, love you still bestie. (:


Random me about me feeling vexed now, what about you?

You pulled the trigger & fired it straight into my heart

Out of a rush decision, we're over. Nothing left to say anymore. Schools fine, went to schools with swollen eyes. I'm fine I guess. Was suppose to go cycling tonight with someone but at the end, canceled i guess.

Did I made the right decision? ):

My heart sinks when the music stops

Schools a so so. Well you can't judge who's a two headed snake & who's for real now, because it's just the starting. Schools @ CHEC, it's way much different from CVSS. Friends you've known for years, gone. New friends yet afraid they might hurt you at the end. & plus schools will just text you're parents when you skip lessons, they don't accept even MC, it's still a 0 for that day. Damn. Well, another msg from schools, I'll be withdrawn from schools by mom. ):

Tomorrow will'b one of the not so hetic day for the week. 3 lessons, 2 hours break, 3.15pm schools end! Sakae sushi will girlfs maybe. Bby's fetching to yishun aftermath, for his grandma's birthday. She flew all the way from Australia. Cool though. Tomorrow might not be a hetic day, if the afternoon's activities were canceled. I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E. Lucky, the weekends are drawing near, because I'm afraid I might collapse anytime soon.

Tomorrow, Sakae with the girls & Bby's family celebration.
Friday, Dad's Birthday.
Saturday, Cheechee's place to help her out.
Sunday, rest?

2 more weeks or so before Bby's going in to NS.
That's when I'll start to really study hard.
That's when I can stop going down Bedok during weekdays at times.
That's when I can concentrate.
That's when I can only meet him during weekends.
That's when I'll miss him badly.
That's when I'll receive phone calls from him in the night!

Bye.

Let's change for the best because better ain't the best yet.

Schools had passed for 2 weeks. So far so good. Made real interesting friends during this 2 weeks. Nothing much to post about, relationship was a disaster but yea I've got over it quickly.

To forgive & forget, yea rockers \m/

Dearie said he's coming to fetch me after schools, then to town! Am a happy girl. I love schools & school's loving me! 4 lessons tomorrow, but it's not as bad as Tuesday's. There's 5 lessons & it's till 4.30pm. Hectic day indeed. Late nights still on, gotta change this bad habit. I've been sleeping for 6 hours or lesser per day. It's like half of my usual sleeping hours.

Still, I don't know why, I'll still have the urge to pull my heavy head up from my pillow & get myself drenched in water in my bathroom, get prepared in a mask which is my make-up & clothings which keeps me warm & off to school. Hate squeezing myself in a packed train, like tuna fishes. But so far so good, guess I'm used to taking train which you'll squeeze with many different people.

Can't wait for a club because I wanna party, though it's been long since I've stepped into an underage/mixage party because I've been heading to Oasis 68 instead when I was still having my holidays. the difference between both is that one you can drink & don't have to line up/ squeeze with people, the other you'll just take forever to get in & you can't drink because of your age.

Anyway I've nothing much to say, byebye.

So you assumed that you're friend?

Well schools started, lessons quite okay. & new friends made too. Not all but some. (: Anyway might be thinking to change to my LJ instead. Depends on my mood!

& to JNYT please don't be a dog. Poor doggy, who wants the owner's attention just for bones. Act pity & now push the blame all to yourself for? So now you wanna become the HERO instead of the civilian? Nah once a civilian, forever one. & I'm telling you to stop your nonsense fugly dog face.

18th today

School's like in less then 12 hours? Omg. Well was suppose to meet TCY but failed! ): I am hungry now. Guess I'll be in bed soon. Meeting Peggy early in the morning & head down to schools together. & meeting Issac aka kai before schools start. Anyway more updates @ my livejournal!

Two is better then one

Slept for less then 2 hours this morning. Was over at Steph's place. Watched tv all the way & fell asleep for like less then 2 hours. Then bused to Dearie's place. Might be heading out to town with co later on. (: Schools starting in less then 5 days time. Gotta go shopping with mom for my schools. Clothings !

Glad we're friends once again. (: This is fate! I hate CHS ttm. Stupid bastard, disgrace to my surname. You suck dick head. Powerful liar with a dick head & pea brain. Hate you for adding oil to the fire for this past few months, sucker. You lose, I win. God will never let evil guys lead a good life. Serve you right, now that you lose her, glad she left you & saw your true colours, sucker. Suck a doggy's dick man! Love snatcher.

I AM A ANGMOHZXC SPEAKING , I KNEW ENGLISH ONE LOZXC !

K, my tittle, I'm just being lame. Teo cooked me hashbrowns and cambell soup! Yummy ttm! Sometimes I really have to admit that his cooking is MARVELOUS ttm. Irresistible! Anyway haven't even have a wink of my beauty sleep. Guess I'll just bare with it till tonight. I will sleep through out my day. Am going out later again! (:


K, bye noobs.

My Bloody Valentine

Steph's house> Hg plaza> Oasis> Hg plaza> Home.

Nothing much happened recently. Had been down to Oasis for drinking session for straight 2 days. The 2nd day of drinking, I broke my own record for not sleeping for 23hours ++. HAHAHA. When school reopens, I have to say byebye to this lifestyle.

I love to drink & throw out, it feels so shiok! & when your head starts to feel heavy & the music playing so loudly, you dance & forget about your troubles. Shiok ttm!

Teo is Missing now. Always MIA-ing. Won't be surprise even if he's in army. Damn, pissing me off totally.

You've gave me unforgetable memories

Supposing to meet my bestie at Hg plaza, but my head hurts & I'm tired. Guess it's due to the late nights for the past few days. Haven't been having my "12hours sleep a day" thing. Guess that's why. Well if schools starting, I guess I'll have even lesser time to sleep. More time on my revision. Well it's worth it since I've choose this path for myself.

Will'b meeting Bestie & maybe Ruiqi for Breakfast later around 8am before she leaves for school. I miss Teo. Currently on FB quarreling with Darius the noob. Well nothing much anyway. Woke up just now around 6pm because I slept at 8.30am in the morning. Was having pool session with Bestie & Co @ Hg plaza. Tons of fun, unstoppable laughing session when I'm with them. You'll see guys with their snook face when the girls shut the guys mouth straight. Fun tmm, I love it! Hope schools won't affect this friendship & hanging out. Just that we have to arrange the meeting timing & all. Hope all of us won't drift apart. Love Bestie ( Steph), Peggy ( MafanKia) Teo ( Piggy JTCW ), Ruiqi, Weikiat ( sista), Kevin ( Beloved son), Jevis (GG kia), Dawei ( shifu) & many more man!

Be the one for me

It's already 2010, didn't had the full clique on the countdown. All I did with the guys was at PS cathy watching a late night movie, Treasure Hunters till wee hours & headed back to SK. Grabbed something to munch from 7/11 & walked back over to the coffee shop down at my place. Had a chit chatting session with JJ, Mel & Sam. Planned to actually go over to Pula Ubin for seafood one of this days. Sounds fun when JJ mentioned that we could also go over to grab some durian back. Can't wait for this trip to actually come true. Hope they'll get their off day soon!

Anyway I'll be starting schools on the 18th Jan, so yea all the best to me.

& to my bestie Steph, I really don't know where are you actually. I don't know whether you're actually playing hide & seek with me or what, but I really miss you. Some told me this, some told me that. I'm really sorry I didn't attend your court session the other day. I really regretted not going too. It slipped off my mind. It's okay, I'll just wait till March when you'll be discharged. That's what I've heard from Ahyang, hope it's true. I miss you Bestie, I really do. When you're out, I'll still keep to my promise, the oyster meesua, my treat. Hurry be out okay? I miss you. Takecare of yourself inside. You're someone important, someone I'll never want to lose no matter what, the bestest gift I can ever get from god. The one who stood by me no matter what. You've always supported whatever my decision was, even if I might be the one at fault. Be out soon, I'll be waiting.

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It's 6.21am now, I'm hungry & not really very sleepy though. Having a celebration later in the evening, how am I gonna go? I'll be dead beat by then, I guess? Hungry yes I am...

The other day when Ahyang called & told me that you'll be in till March, tears just rolled down my cheeks. I didn't force it out, it just rolled out by itself.