Tied down with work

Got no time for others, just work & yea WORK.

Got over everything, I don't wish to explain anything. It's good that you've listened to your friends instead, to ignore me.

So many things to talk about, yet this ended so fast.

& I myself read your lj on my own, w/o anyone mentioning about it. Thought that this year's bday, you'll come & celebrate with me, because you've missed last year's celebration & the year before, you came, but for a short while only. Well guess you won't turn up this year again. Guess I'll friendship had come to an end.

Just wished we both were in our single life, bet things will be so different..

Things are getting out of my hands

Friends who stood by me? Boyfriend upset with what I've said?

Failure I am, yes indeed.

Don't really need anything now, just peace. Your words hurt indeed, my friend..

Someone who I loved & trusted you with my love, someone who doesn't speak out to me directly, instead through my friend then I'll know what & how you actually feel. Our relationship won't go anywhere further, it'll just end soon..

A lousy friend & a lousy girlf I am.

Bye, gone with the lovely wind to somewhere lovely.

To my dearests

Happy 17th birthday KevinCKT son, & happy 18th birthday Sista WK. My beloved ones, equally important to me. Hope you guys will enjoy your celebration with friends. As for the presents I'll hand it to you guys as soon as I pay off my debts first. (:

Practically nothing much about my friday. Slept once I'd reached home from steph's house, around 8plus. Slept for only like 3 hours plus @ her house & back to my lovely home, after having a free breakfast at VERY NICE with Teo. Well both the aunty & me had forgotten that I've not paid, neither did she remember to remind me to pay. So yea, free breakfast for the day. Teo sent me home & he left. Shifted my pillow, bolster & blanket out to the sofa & slept there. Slept all the way till afternoon. Had my lunch & laid back to the sofa & took a short nap. Dad came home, got ready & headed down to Chinatown for steamboat, with my family. Saw Hao that dog, LOL! Home aftermath. Onlined till now. Suppose to meet sam & jack under my block, because of their, LAST MIN CALL. Too bad, I'm lazy & tired to get my ass off my chair. Guess I'm gonna head to bed soon, Beauty sleep needed!

& yea Teo MIA-ed for so long. He just shouldn't get a phone, you can barely contact him. Neither messages nor phone calls. Fucka-licious!

As for Angel's birthday, I shall think whether to go anot. Cause I don't really feel like going out of a sudden. Most of you guys are fake. I don't like it!

Bye people.

Turn up the heat in the club people

Well friends having prom night today, kinda envy. & thinking back about me not studying hard, makes me feel so lonely & sad now. If only I passed my N levels, I'll be having prom night today at this very moment with my beloved ones. Thinking about the girls who're gonna have their hair nicely done, putting on make up & wearing beautiful dresses with a pair of lovely heels, looking just like a princess. How I wish I was doing all this with my girls back then in schools.

But it's ok, at least I've made new friends, be it at work or during ITE days. As I've made a promised to mom that I'll be back in schools next year after quitting twice this year, I've made up my mind, to get back & sit for O levels, if possible, though I've failed my N level.

At least I've passed those main subjects for N level, but not really very good grades. I'll make it this time round. Bet I'll be studying alone in the school. It's ok, since I've promised to study next year after 8 months of holidays.

Stayed home the whole day again & yea 2nd day w/o having Teo's presence by me. Let's see how long can we stop seeing each other. He asked me down today, but to KM's house to watch "Xia dao Xiao" or something on KM's lappy. Like, I don't really understand HOKKIEN & I've watched before! I'll be bored the whole night if I'm down at Bedok. Well, another day at home.

Now I'm just waiting for dinner to be back. MY CHICKEN RICE, OR MAYBE NASI LEMAK! YUMMY~

Lets put it to a simple test

He pin pointed his fingers at me, assuming that was mine.

Just being random. My mood ain't right for now, cause Teo just made me happy for one minute & upset or maybe angry the very next minute. Thought I could just see him later on in the night, but I was wrong. I think I need his presences every single day. Damn, no way.

Robinson's job over, like at last. Great experience, made new friends & it's tiring for sure. Gonna get another job soon, needa pay off debts & prepare for next year. Think I'll be back in schools next year. So when it comes to "raining days", which I think there won't be, in my dictionary. I've been depending on my parents whenever I'm in need of money, which I think it's time for me to depend on myself.

& forget about depending on my one & only Teo. If he's not so lazy, I won't be working so hard for money, just to enjoy myself. It's ok he will never change on matter who nags at him.

Spent my whole day at home, woke up for lunch, it rained & I fell back to sleep after having maggie mee for lunch. Had an apple pie & wasabi coated green peas for dinner. Yum, wasabi coated green pea, my all time favourite, for snacks. Trapped at home the whole day, meeting no one & yea not even Teo.

It's been long since I've last seen many of my friends. Thinking back, I miss schools alot. Wearing your school uniforms early in the morning, with a snook face, having the longest bus ride you ever had to a place where you'll see almost all your friends. Back then, I didn't really enjoyed schools, & I don't know why......

8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning..

Just try to understand me more, I'll appreciate it.

Have been working, hardly got the time to update, not even having time for friends & family. But glad some of them came. Saw their faces & of course I was delighted, that's for sure. Past few days had been a ferocious "war".

Bombed sista wk today, so sorry. I'm really too tired & lazy to even step out of bed though, don't even say my house door.

Tomorrow I'm starting work 10 am in the morning till evening, plus I have to pay back those time which Teo & me were late. Needa pay back around 3 hours or so. Damn.

Friday, Saturday & Sunday I shall do OT, to earn more money. That's all, guess I'll be heading to bed soon, gotta get up real early just to get over to Teo's place. My make up set it's all with him, angry! Nights.

Sometime, somehow, I wish we could turn back time & stop it right there.

Poor boy, he's sick & to think of it, I could actually flare at him just because of a text. Hope he's not angry with me. Can't believe I can actually get so paranoid just because of a late reply. He was gonna ask what to drink if he's having a fever. I'm just a failure, when it comes to "caring for your boyf" thing. Well, I used to takecare of myself, that's all. Didn't expect someone to appear in my life. Thought I'll just have friends & family around me. Gonna go over & cook some porridge for him, he has to eat it no matter how plain it tastes. He's down with a sore throat, flu & fever, now. Hope he's resting well right now, seeya later dearest.

I am so so sorry dearest.

I know you want me.

Starting work at expo, this coming Wednesday. Excited though, will'b busy to post/ meet anyone up, but feel free to text me up anytime buddies. (: So long for now.