I bet you've gone bersak..

Was suppose to go for an interview @ orchard there for a bag stall, but my beloved zharbor, steph woke up damn late. So I've forgo the thought of going down for that interview anymore. A last min decision from sissy jo that we'll head down to orchard & yea it's O-R-C-H-A-R-D again for another interview. It's recruit express. Thought I can actually start work on saturday, was looking forward for it but a last min call from the guy saying only my sister was in because they don't have any slots anymore. & sissy jo appiled before me. OH WELL, I can't find any job at the moment, neither can I work at this time. No job & I can't hunt for job because the guy gonna send all my resumme to every company. & I have to have my phone with me all the time, because he might call me anytime if the hospital needs me.

I can slack for the time being, hope he gets to me real soon. I need a job badly. Needa save for B's birthday, it's coming soon, he's turning 18 soon & yea me still stuck in my 17 wanna be life.

He'll laugh at me for everything, because of my age. Damn it.

Ate at orchard, walked around & headed back to sk to meet cheechee & hs. Then walked home, & yea home sweet home. What a day, B fall asleep, thought of meeting him after dinner, but KM's so lazy to come down to sk & B fall asleep. PIGS!

Guess I'll be meeting B tomorrow. He's complaining BORED to me this few days, I wonder why. & no gaming for me, sissy's laptop down. She sorta screwed it with some pw. HAHAHAHA.

Bye.

Jealousy kills..

I hate my life, sister jo just selfish, i hate it when she shouts. I want my own laptop. Fuck it. She's always getting the best, yet I've never get any. Life just so unfair. Just because she's clever & I'm not. I hate it. So what if she gets into poly, o lvl cert, with a pass?

So many things happening, i don't know where to start.

Bye.

I've gotta plan my future already..

Well, really gotta plan about my future. Where I wanna be, what will I be doing in the next 5 years or so. Everybody's nagging me to get a job soon, stop lazing around like what I'm actually doing now. & to think about it, I guess I should find one soon. Can you believe even steph nagged at me about finding a job now? HAHAHA.

She's quitting school, that's what I've heard from her. She said she'll be accompanying me to get a job. Mom recommended me a data entry job, which I've longed for it. But I don't have their number, been pestering mom for it, but seems that she's not gonna help me get it. ):

Been audi-ing the whole day. & I saw B played beatup, beatrush, 8k & 4k. He's a loser in 8k & 4k! He cheats in 4k, 190. He thought me how to cheat, but infact I've found it before he told me the key to it! He's just a noob. He lost to me in 8k & 4k though he cheated. What a noob! HAHAHA.

Gonna get my ass back to audi again soon. I'm just so addicted to audi, how I wish B would get his ass back into audi with me & tag hearts! I want a saffaron or what ever it's called. I want that ring, it's nice! ): Anyways I've blogged finish, gonna get me ass into audi with Sissy Jo, to send kiss. Nothing much already. Missing B alot.

Bye.

Happy 18th birthday Sissy Jo..

Happy birthday Sissy Jo, may all your wishes come true.. Now you don't have to even go underage clubs man! Not bad!

Anyways nothing much about this morning. B called me just to tell me my show was on, roadrunner & it was on OKTO. HAHAHHAHA! How cute can he ever be, no matter how irritating he is, I still love him!

Audi-ed the whole day & at last lvl 34! I took my own licence myself & I passed it at the very first try! HAHAHAHA.

K, bye.

What's wrong..

I hate it when you gave me those attitude over the phone. You might think it's nothing maybe a normal chat over the phone with me, but to me, you're showing me some kinda attitude. What's really wrong. I don't like your this "so-so" attitude, I hate it. Just because of auditionsea, you gave me the attitude? Hang up on me?

What I want from you, ain't that attitude. I wanna hear something sweet from your mouth everytime we're on the phone. Something that will brighten up my day. When I'm down, hearing your voice just brighten up my day, but not your "so-so" attitude.

Yet today, when I'm at my most moody period of the month, you gave me that "so-so" attitude.

Thank You Very Much, but I don't need it.

Thanks for everything, you made my day worse. Was hoping to hear something sweet from your mouth because it's our 3rd month, but I was wrong.

I hate it when you talk to me like this. I don't like it when you show me your attitude. You love to put down the phone on me, fine, don't call me anymore.

Happy to see your tag on my tagboard at first.

Dissapointed at the end of the day, yet you won't know how I'm feeling. I feel like crying real hard, but I know it won't help at all. Sometimes I just feel we were not meant to be, because I'm just a bad girlf for you. It's always because of me, we'll start to quarrel.

Forget it. Hope everything will be fine soon..

Bye.

Happy 3rd month anniversary Baby..

Back to audi. Those who audi, add me up, JCMC my ign. Bored, audi-ed the whole afternoon. Gonna go over to grandma's place to celebrate sissy Jo's birthday in advance.

Sometimes I wish I could sleep & never wake up again.

Bye.

I promise I'll keep my words..

I slept super early yesterday due to the bad flu I'm suffering from. Slept around 9 plus, but to be exact it's 10 plus, because phone calls came in & none stop msges. Ignore some msges but I've to pick up the phone calls.



Boyf was being a noob to actually believe in the horoscope thing. He read mine & said someone better will appear soon around may? Lame, may it's over already. He scared I leave him la. If you don't believe this kind, everything will be fine. This kinda things only make you paranoid, then it'll cause quarrels.



Then son asked me to go online not long after I put down the phone with B. He asked me to wake up & talk to him on msn, but I told him when I wake up then I'll talk to him, in the end I woke up around 5.55am because my septum ring got hooked into my blanket & it hurts.



Son said he's gonna play webcam with me! (:



Now I guess I won't be going back to sleep, because I'm real hungry.



& to unknown, shall not name her, later she say I insult her again. It's both parties at fault, like what I've told you sis. So if you're not happy or you wanna clarify things with me, just text me up or maybe a phone call would be better, 96684330.

Everything's making me angry, nothing seems to please me..

I want to get MY OWN LAPTOP, so that I won't need to beg so hard just to get a patetic password from anyone.

I am real angry now, I don't know what's wrong. I feel so angry & at the same time I feel like crying. I know it sounds crazy, but it's true.

Life's just so unfair for me. I know I'm a stubborn & mischeavious girl, who stays out late, smokes, drinks, always going against everything, but do you know what causes this in the first place. None of you know.

Life seems so down for me. Sometimes I just wish waking up to see all those things I want beside me. I see you having things which you longed wanted, but me, having nothing but naggings & scoldings from others. Remember the smoking inccident in Malaysia. I was the one at fault. I've no choice but to say it was me who got the ciggs, though I did really paid it. I'm fine with it, really.

You play the good guy role, while I'll play the bad guy role. That's my fate.

Down with a bad flu,that makes me moody.

Bye.

It was you & me against the world..

Blogger just sucks to the core. I don't know what's wrong with it. If this still carries on, I think I might just use live journal, till blogger's fixed.

B dao-ed me on msn, damn it. Now I'm going to DOTA with sissy Jo.

Won't be going out today, I guess. Lazy, tired & broke. Needa save money for something, IMPORTANT. Shall not eleborate about it.

K off to Dota, people who know me, add me in garena, -JCMC. My new acc, lost my previous acc pw.

Bye.

Problematic blogger, fix the bug man..

4.22am & I am still awake. Tired but at the same time not tired. This is weird. My body still as hyper as ever but eyelids seems to be holding weights on it, it's shutting real soon. Guess I give up on waiting for B that pig to get up. Need my sleep too. & I am just too lazy to go out later on. No money, no talk.

I want moneyyyyyyyyyy.

Bye, nights.

Life's just so unfair..

Was webcaming the whole night with Steph Zharbor. It was super funny. We were introducing each others bears & tweety bird. Webcamed with KevinCKT son & sista Wk too. Sista Wk frightened me, damn it. Hate it. Then Webcamed with son, showing him my both cute furry bears. He said he was gonna steal it from my house, like no way! Nothing much happened. Waiting for B to wake up & online to dota with me!

I hate it when you nagged & question me.

It seems that I'm always in the wrong.

I hate the feeling, it makes my head spin.

I know I'm the one spending the most money.

You've been saying it over & over again.

Why not just ignore my health, stop visiting doctors.

I don't wanna be a burden to you guys anymore.

Just ignore my health, I'll take good care of it, no worries.

I need no doctors, it's just a waste of money.

As for phone bills, I'll pay it myself, once I get a job.

I've tried so many interview, but still I've failed.

I hate interviews, seriously.

I don't wanna laze around at home neither, but I just can't find a job.

I've tried my best, hope you'll understand.

I know you've been reading my blog too.

But I'll still blog the way I normally blog, I'll not change.

Don't come talking to me about my blog after you've read this.

I don't like being questioned.

I wanna be the true me, not the fake me.

& others don't KPO also, cause it's not for you.

Bye, 2more days to 3rd month, I Love You.

You took my heart with you..

It's 1.44am in the morning & I'm still waiting for B to come online & dota with me! I'm using sissy Jo's lappy to blog & stuffs nowdays. She's so kind, I love her lotzxc! TWIT! LOL! The SS above was taken by Sista Wk while webcaming with him. I did one batman style, but it was too unglam so he didn't blogged it. Swear me & sista Wk were laughing all the way. I did the actions & he told me he was laughing all the way. HAHAHA! Bored & I wanna play webcam with B, but he's still not online! Guess his dad still gambling @ facebook. ):

Just now went out prawning with Steph & F @ punggol. Then had our dinner @ there. It was a buffet & we were supper full. Ate beside the sea? LOL! Romantic siol! Talked alot & we walked out from punggol marina. Damn it, it was a 15-20min walk! After a full meal, we exercised. GRRRR, & the road was super scary. Damn it. It just freaked me out.

Then we cabbed home.

Online-ed & I'm doing nothing now. Edited blog, fs, for both me & B. & I miss him.

Heard from B about eclipse? Sounds cool eh! So does it mean that if one of the planet covers the sun, the earth won't get any light, then everybody so gonna get time off from school/work? :D The earth will be dark?

It's once in a 100years. We're lucky to see it. I'm gonna wake up early just to see it. (:

But heard from Sissy Jo, there'll be tsunami? So what is what? LOL.

To my dearest son, KevinCKT, Son don't be moody already. If there's something kept inside you & you need to let it out, I'll lend you my ears. & It's up to you whether you wanna tell me anot, but no matter what, I'll still be beside you, supporting you all the way. MOM LOVES SON!

Guess I shall end here.

Bye, 3 more days till our 3rd month, I Love You.

JEALOUSLY KILLS ..

Well, my com it's down right now. Damn it. Nothing to entertain myself. Was out with Son& Alfred for a movie, harry potter & the half blood prince, the movie was long&Boring! then the rest joined us after dinner. Sista Wk came Tiong to find us for dinner. Then home sweet home.(:

Took out my extendsions, damn it hurts. My hair got tangled up.

Hair short, short hair! YIPEEEE!

K nothing much already, I am broke, no money already, no outings this few days for me. Damn it.

Bye.

What's my plan now ..

I'm gonna get up early later on & get my ass down to simei ITE first to meet Son & co. by 12.15pm. Then to depot to pay a visit to yewfatt. It's the 7th day since you've left us, we miss you so.. & my schedule for this week is packed with activities! Today, paying a visit to Yewfatt. Saturday, LiangRongCOCKFACE's birthday, gonna be out the whole day, till late night. Sunday HappyWong's church first then Melissa's birthday in the night, another day gone.

Not gonna meet B @ all I guess, maybe next week? I'll miss you, don't worry! & you better stop singing to me your irritating song with the edited version song by you! You should know what song I'm referring too!*winks with evil laughters*

Ok I wanna be random now.

Here it goes..

I am craving for..

PLAIN WATER!

Ok lame, I don't know why, but I feel so dehydrated out of a sudden.

& I went for a job interview today, it's to promote channel 8's badgets. Guess it's some campigne or something. Hopefully I get this job this time round, because it's easy money & real short hours, as short as 2 hours! But the uniform, it's damn "kuku".

I NEED MONEY FOR THIS WEEK, ANYONE WANNA SPON ME? ^^

K last thing to blog about, this is for my dearest Sista WK, it's just my point of view, so others don't KPO okiie!

Sista, don't sad already, seeing you sad, moody makes me moody too. Seeing you this way makes me hate her, it seems that she's treating you as a spare tyre. When she's happy she contact you, meet you & stuffs. Once she's real down, she ignores you totally, making you worried as if it's the end of the world. I don't want you to be the one getting hurt in the end. Neither do I want to see you being a fool @ the end. I can't tell you what to do because it'll make things worse, moreover you love her more then you love me! *JEALOUS* Just joking! No one can tell/teach you what to do now, it's time to move & make use of your "CUTE LITTLE BRAIN" & think. No matter what's your choice, I'll still support you, cause we're S4L remember? ILY SISTA WK!

Bye.

I've this sudden urge to ..

I've this sudden urge to grab a pencil & get back drawing & designing things on a piece of A3 size paper, like how I use too when I was in my secondary school days. I don't know why, but the thought of it came into my mind suddenly. Afraid that the drawing might not please me, so I've dropped the idea of it. Now I don't think I can even draw something nice & pleasent anymore. It won't be like the past where I'll love every piece of my art work.

Damn it..

Bye.

FRIENDS DO BETRAY YOU ..

Spent my day with Baby yesterday. He took the first bus over to my place. Woke up around 6 & went to get ready, I was late. Sorry, HAHAHA. Slacked awhile & went up to my place. Slept till 3 plus & we got ready to meet my sista wk @ Eunos for dinner. Bused down & settled our dinner @ a coffee shop. After that we went to some blocks & chit chatted over there. Sent sista wk off to the bus stop & Baby sent me home, his a stubborn XQG! If you don't know what XQG, it's XiaoQi Gui! HAHAHA! He insist that he don't wanna go home till the last bus. But in the end he went off around 10 plus 11.

He's suppose to come & find me this morning but I bet his sleeping like a pig now!

Nothing much, gonna stay home the whole day, sista Jo coming home later on, YIPEEE!

& to geraldine, look we're just clarifying things with you. We didn't even scolded any valgurities to you & you started solding a cb out from your mouth. & after that you cried. WTF you want? Now you're just trying to make us the bad guys & you're the good one. Did we even say it was you? I was asking who saw it yea? & you didn't ans my question, then you started to cry& your boyf came into this picture. Since you've already said it's between us, what for ask him to help you. & you know why did I put down the phone? Cause I see no point talking to you already. Just forget it, we treat you as bestf you treat us like what? Go think about it. If you didn't add oil to the fire, everything will be fine. Can't blame you, just blame ourself for not opening our eyes big enough & seeing your true colours in the first place. Damn it.

& Steph Zharbor, takecare of yourself please. Don't keep crying over this kinda things. I know it hurtsm, but what's done it's already done. You can't turn back time. Just hope that you're fine now. No matter what others say about you, I'll still be there for you. Be strong girl!

Nothing much already, what I wanna rant out, I've already did. That's all.

Bye.

GOODBYE MY FRIEND, YEWFATT, RIP.. ):

Reached sg not long ago & heard of my friend, Yewfatt passed away just like that. ):
He knocked his head against don't know what & he passed away just like that. We'll all miss you like hell. Those days, going down cres hanging out with you guys & going cyrus, with you around. & those days where you log onto your msn, telling me about what job you're doing, showing me those pictures you took while working & many more. Now you won't be there anymore. It'll be really weird w/o you, though I know you for a short period of time. We're always a clique going to cyrus or hanging out @ cres though I stay far from you guys. I know you less then a year & now you're gone. Was shock to hear the news from sista wk, I don't know what to say, but just rest in peace my dear friend. You'll always be missed by me my dear friend! Xiaotwentycent \m/! Rock on dude. WE'LL MISS YOU ALOT! Do visit us @ cres, block 10 coffee shop, ok? Lao di fang jian my dear friend! (:

Sorry that I can't make it for your funeral & see you for the last time. ):

Anyways I will never go Thailand when the weather there sucks. It's super hot which made me real angry spending my 5 days there. The best part was only the shopping, eating & sleeping but not the weather! It's being a bitch. Grew fat I swear. We're always eating. I had a bad mood there, begging to get back to the hotel, nagging @ things almost the whole day.

Sorry, but the weather, it's killing me.

Shopped many stuffs, that I over spent my buget, though it was mommy who paid everything! & the best part was the foot massage! It's cheap & good. You'll have to do that when you're there! Pictures ain't with me & blogger is being a bitch. I just can't post any pictures.

Damn it, screw you bitch.

I missed every single one & I'm gonna meet Baby tomorrow, YIPEEEE!!

Bye, R.I.P ANG YEWFATT, my beloved friend.

WHY WON'T YOU ADMIT IT, BITCH ?

Well I'm here to rant about something & it's about someone. If you think you're the one, be it. Not happy with what I'm gonna blog, leave it.

I can't believe that you'll be so cunning, doing this kinda stuffs. Why didn't you admit it in the first place? Why must you still deny it? Just admit it, & everything will be fine now. I knew from the start that it was you & it really was you. Received a call yesterday night & confirmed it was you. Damn it bitch, you suck a life time. Thought you'll be a good friend, a good sister, yet you turned out this way. Suck it bitch! You'll not get any further, I swear. & people beware of this girl. She loves to go around giving numbers & texting with them, so called "Hong". If you're attached, stay faithful to your beloved boyf & not texting other guys. Don't give other guys false hope. Karma will strike you hard for what you've did.

If you really think it's you & you wanna confirm whether it's you, just text me up bitch, I'll be waiting.

ALL ATTACHED PEOPLE CAN'T CLUB ANYMORE ?

Was wondering whether all those who're attached, can they still go to club & enjoy themselves?
The answer is : YES !
If it's no, means the club will be filled with people who are single only!

Was talking to Jevis about it in maple, because he said about that night they went to club, HAHAHA.

Missed out the fun, damn it. & I'll prove Jevis wrong, even if you're attached you can still enjoy, but not go over board, so long you know your limits, then it's ok already!

JTCW is so crazy over maple, I bet he'll be maple-ing every single day.

& I'm leaving for Thailand real soon, this coming Thursday morning. Don't miss me peepo, cause I'll be back real soon, on the coming Monday evening or so! YAY!

Holidays for me, schools for you guys, HAHAHAHA! ITE & Secondary school peepo, study hard eh, don't be jealous, NERDS! (:

Gonna meet Baby tomorrow morning @ his place. Leaving home as early as 7.15am. Then I'm gonna meet KevinCKT son in the afternoon or evening to slack with him, already promise him.

Bye.

I AM A HAPPY WOMAN..

Baby at my place now, his bathing because I've just cut his hair short! TEEEHEEE! Happy!!! Hope he likes it! Slept for less then an hour & bused to his place, woke him up, waited for him to get ready. He accompanied me down to Lavander to get my passport. Bought a chip & dale cover for my passport! CUTE, TOTALLY! After that bused home & slept till 2 plus. He mapled while I cook for him, maggie. LOL! His gonna go home soon, I'll miss him man! ):

Shall update later in the night, HAHAHA.

Bye.

MAPLE ONCE AGAIN ..

Well this few days, had been having late nights. Didn't slept the day before yesterday, wanna know why? Because I mapled all the way with Baby & Jevis. Mapled till 5 plus 6, slept for like 15 min? Got up & got ready. Left house around 7.15am. Bused to Baby's house. Slacked, watched tv & I slept for less then a hour or so, he got ready & we went to Paya Labar to meet Happy! But we didn't attend her church, because Baby was real tired. Bused back to his house, got his class photo & his hostel guadution photo. Handsome & smart I swear, but now he don't know like wht cock face like that, HAHAHAHA! But still I love him! Bused home, & slept all the way till 9 plus, had my dinner & back to sleep, I know I'm a pig, but who cares!

Gonna rot at home today, don't intend to go out at all, HAHAHAHA.

There's clubbing today, but I guess I won't be going, sorry steph, sorry sista wk. ):

PISSED OFF..

What's the matter now? Do you think by going offline it'll be solved? Really don't know what's wrong. If you said a yes, I'll go & accompany you straight w/o having second thoughts, instate you said never mind. Don't know what you want now.

Forget it, what a fucked up day today. Nbcb.

MOODLES ..

PMS. Once again. Nothing can describe how I'm feeling now. Angry? Sad? Happy? Annoyed? Just don't ask me why, thank you very much.
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6.43pm
Mapled the whole day as I've said in my live journal. Luckily there's maple to accompany my moody day today. & CHEECHEE I'm fine, nothings wrong, don't worry, loveya!

Gonna work next week from Monday to Wednesday alone, from 12- night at vivo. Alone once again. No choice.

Gonna meet happy tomorrow for church around 3 plus till late I guess. Sunday I don't think I'll be going to the club steph. Sorry. & I'm gonna go to Thailand on Thursday till the following Monday. Hope I enjoy myself there.

That's all for now, gonna maple later in the night again around 11.45pm or 12am onwards.

Bye.

NO LIFE ..

Well shall start from 2 days ago, because it's the 3rd of July now.
1st July, forgotten where did I went, only remembered talking to sista wk & Baby on the phone.
They dota-ed while chatting, then talked to sista wk till 5 plus 6.
Baby called & sista put down the phone & into his LALALALAND, HAHAHHA.
Baby didn't come over to my place, instead I went over to his place after bathing around, 7.30am?
Slacked, watched tv, eat, Audi & watched him dota.
Left his place around 2.15 to meet sista Jo to get my Passport done.
Got everything done around 4 & left for cp to get our dinner.
We're both damn hungry.
Ate LJS & headed home.

Slept since 5pm till morning 10plus & went to get ready.
Meet Peg at tiong.
Sista wk came after that & we went to henderson market for lunch.
Damn it, Kevin Son scammed us, he woke up super late!
Ate & bused over to find Jevis emokid, HAHAHA.
Watched him eat his wanton mee, then me & sista wk bused over to tiong to find son @ his place.
Damn it, I wanna take a pic of son in his NPCC uniform, damn KUKU!
HAHAHA.
I'll get the pic one day idiot.

Then we went for lan @ cyrus & dinner @ cres.
Long time since I've been there.
Slacked @ block 10 opposite the playground.
Bused home around 9 plus.
The journey sucks a life time. ):

Gna see baby later, yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!