I'll not follow your footsteps

Bday was a diaster. Teo got sick & I had send him to the hospital during the wee hours. Then he, of course, rest the whole day. As for me, my beloved zharbor & friends bought me a cake & gave me a surprise at hg plaza. SWEET! & it was on the dot, 12am, 24th dec 09. (: After that to Teo's place, hospital & home-d. Slept all the way till night & got up just for dinner with my family & vivo to meet joash & clique for another cake celebration. After that trained down with sista wk, Kevin son, Dawei Shifu & ahben to jurong. Got off the wrong station & yea, cabbed all the way down to arena country club to meet peggy my another love for drinking. She spent a total of 160 bucks on my bday. Touched ttm & I love her! & thanks for everything guys!

Christmas, I had a high fever & so no town area for me at all. Home-d before 10pm. All alone till my family came home to look after me. ):

That's all, currently at Darius's house. & I really regret for playing on with them black jack, esp woth LIANGRONG & DARIUS, whole time scammers! Hate them ttm. I've lost 15 bucks to scammers! & Junjie the moron, laughing his ass off because the movie actors got hurt!

Really enjoyed my days though. I've all the friends I love around me already, what more can I ask for? I love you guys ttm, nobody but you guys man!

P.S: to those who's my past, you're really my past. I've thought through how you treat me, & I totally feel I was dumb to actually feel sad from the start. & I really regret feeling sad. If even the one you loved the most don't stand by you, don't expect others too. Byebye cause you've hurt so many people around me too, my bestfriends & all. I don't wish to talk about you anymore, heartbreaker ! :D

You've turn me this way, no turning back

Back to normal, quarrels one after another. You left with your yaya papaya attitude, so can I. Let me tell you this, I'm better then you for your yaya papaya attitude. One day if you ever lose me, don't ever regret cause I'll leave with no regrets. MARK MY WORDS.

You'll never change after so many promises. You break your promises again & again. I'm sick & tired of liars. So what if I always believed what you did after so many empty promises? Don't take advantage. I just can't stop myself from thinking about that incident. Thought you were all my close friends, instead of his. What did I earn at the end of everything? Lies from all the one I loved the most, helping each other just to make me so called "Happy"? So you guys don't understand me still, you guys always think I'll get angry & yea all of your thinking were, lie to her at least she won't know the truth & not get frustrated. & when I found out the truth, you will go, oh I'm afraid you'll be angry & yea so which means I won't be angry at you for even having the intention to lie to me to make me happy?

Anyways I've no time for you anymore, you wanna enjoy your way, go ahead. I've to study for next year. You & my friends go ahead enjoying, I don't care anymore. Your promises are just for me to listen & forget about it because it'll never come true, so yea.

Well just some ranting after so long, since I've no one to talk to, which I feel comfortable to talk to too, blogging is the best way.

Anyway for my birthday presents, Christmas presents I have got to get many things, FOR MYSELF.

-New clothes
-New accessories
-iTouch
-New phone
-Angel fit Foundation
-Loreal gel liner
-Chip & Dale tower & chippy's partner

Really hope my birthday there's at least something for me to do the whole day & I want people I miss to turn up on my birthday, provided that you're free.

K bai fck.

Counting down..

24th Dec, ask me out, nobody booked me. ): No plans, nothing. But yea, 17 wanna be, 16 so goodbye! I want presents like, angel fit's foundation, Loreal's gel liner, Maybeline's eye shadow & new clothes for Christmas itself. ): Lastly a new phone on my bday, as daddy promised. & one more chip & dale. Get me this & I'll love you like you've never been loved before.

Actually no presents also okay, hongbao with money inside also can, enough for me to get the items myself also can (:

k, gtg out with Teo to orchard now, bye.

You won't be mine for long, yes I know you won't

My off day today. Past 2 days was a terrible. Quarrels & more with Teo. Well I don't know, whatever he do, it just seems to pissed me off. Sometimes I ask myself, do I really love him still, or feelings fading away. Sorry to be so straight forward here, if you see this. Last time whenever I'm with him, I don't have this weird feeling. Well guess it's because I'm still angry with what he did, my mouth said yes I've forgiven him, but I guess my heart says no to my mouth. So afraid we won't go on long.

Will we be like the past? Your actions makes me think alot. Yes I guess I'm angry & jealous. You're lazy, always thinking of having fun, sometimes you just don't think about how I'm feeling.

When I'm sick you hesitate whether to come down & visit me. But when your sister calls for you saying she's sick, when she told me she was drunk, you went down immediately. This prove how much fun means to you. Having fun means much more then me. Don't tell me you didn't have fun the whole day, I bet you were. When you guys laugh & joke, I catch nothing. You said I don't laugh at your jokes while they do. You having fun almost everyday, while me working almost everyday. Why ain't you the one who's working while me having fun? Life just so different from others.

I'm breaking down soon, I need someone to talk to, but I haven't found the perfect one to talk to. Smiling still, with a broken heart though. Deep down in me, I've not forgiven you at all.

So many things to say, but just how can I explain what's in me?

Blamed for a wrong reason

Spend within your limits. Teo surprised me with a packet of nougat from Cocoa Tree just now. Was all so happy to see it, my all time fav!

Work tomorrow, Loreal, Maybeline & Nova, here I come!

We always think we're always right when we didn't get the facts right from the start.

& Yes life just so great..

Since you've said I meet her everyday, which was what you've always been thinking, I shall show you what's the difference between meeting her everyday & meeting her once a week or just because for supper. You always think your way & I think my way, stubborn, yes we are. Disappointed & angry, yes I am indeed, thanks for saying those things, which sounds partly untrue.

New life

Working a new job, tough but worth it. Loreal products, want any, ask me for advice, not expert though, but I'll give you the best advice. Wanna get any products, get it from me. (:

I wanna earn commission! Loveya guys \m/